Nightmare finally over!

Mood: Relieved Health:Good Weather:Cool

2 days ago, after the discovering of the erroneous data, I have a strong feeling that my supervisor is not going to reply my enquires. By thursday morning, I gave up the hope of having the correct data to support my modelling. I was cool about it eventually. All I could do was to 'bullshit' a little bit about my concept which was not my kind of dish really.

6 hours ago, I was in the university, waiting to bind my dissertation and submitting it. Finally... finally... this 5 months project has ended. For the past few weeks especially the last week, were nightmares! You may be thinking 'Sam must be doing last minute work'. Well, I started writing bits of my dissertation very early during the Christmas recession. After being involved in finite element modelling, my time spent in writing became less. This modelling thing really got my nerves and eye sight. My eye power has increased due to the prolonged period of facing the computer screen.

So why the nightmares if I have done some of it? It was "bad habit"! I have a bad habit of editing bits and pieces here and there again and again, never stopping even until this morning. For the first time in my life, in the midst of my work, I felt giddy and wanted to throw up in front of my laptop. I felt sick and I guessed I have pushed myself too much especially for the past few days. My whole body was aching, my eyes were burning and I could feel the pressure sores accumulated on my bum. I was so afraid that I would get sick, and I gorged myself with more water, vitamins and herbs. I have been working for at least 16-22 hours constantly for the past few days!

Imagining, the next day, Singapore newspaper featured 'Singaporean student found dead in UK hostel'. I have a feeling that this continuity is going to kill me, if I do not take a break. So I slept from 3am to 5am in the morning and continued with my work again. Then I firmly told myself that I must stop my work by 7am in the morning, got it print out and submit them to the teaching office. I am glad that this was over. I can't wait to have a good meal and good rest.

Talking about today... my goodness... I was so embarrassed with myself. There was no staff to help us with the binding so we have to figure out how to use the equipment. After some time, we manage to get our book binding done. At this instant, a new guy came in and was having some problems so I offered to teach him how to use the binding equipment. OMG!!! I wished I didn't help him at all. I screwed up his 10 pages because I didn't align the papers properly. OMG!! What a fool I was!

Surprising he was so cool. I realised that the Caucasian tends to take things lightly. I felt so bad, I kept on apologising to him and he was so cool about it. Anyway, I gave him some money so that he could print them again in the computer lab. I hope he won't remember me... Sighs... a helping hand turned into disaster! Sam... Sam!!!