Friday, the 13th

Mood:Tired Health:Good Weather:Cold

I was practically doing nothing at all after I came back from school in the evening. I had my dinner and watched a 90 min documentary. Today had been quite overwhelming. I was tired and headed for bed after that around 10pm and woke up at 1am by my dry throat quenching for thirst. I knew that I won't be able to get back to sleep again... as the day still haunts my mind.

So here I am, writing a post at 3am...

I had a group discussion in the afternoon and it turned out to be quite nasty. 'U know who no.2' mocked at me and was very sarcastic during the discussion. Reflecting few months ago, I was kind enough to send her our group work though she had done nothing. If I were to be mean, I couldn't have done it for the fact that she had not contributed. She had no idea that she had bitten the hands that fed her. Despite that I don't like her that much after that coursework, I still try to treat her with the best humanism I can.

Later during lecture, we sort of having a debate because each group had different views on a topic. When the lecturer asked for my view, I had to say something which supported my group. What came out from my mouth sparked the most engaging controversy which I had never expected. I was speaking on the reality side, and I know how harsh it could be. Trust me, I would never want to say something like that, like most of them, I do wish everyday is beautiful.

Perhaps, it wasn't that bad to be on the evil side until the lecturer kind of twisted my views and the atmosphere blew up. There was opposition and some acknowledged that what I have said was facts. I was not wrong or right, so were the rest. Everything wasn't that horrible until 'u know who no.2' who was in my group and supposed to support me, betrayed me by siding with the opposition. I was stunned.

I was in total silent and I prefer to keep it this way. Some time, silent seems to be the best solution. Over the years, I learned that some things are best never mentioned. I am not sure how many times she is going to 'stab' me further and I am not sure if I could maintain that sense of serenity and calm composure for long.

At the end of the day, I realised it was Friday, the 13th...