Breaking out

It is me again... I know I shouldn't be online until my last paper is over but I felt so raged now. I felt that exam is going to murder me soon.

I haven't get over my previous exam incident yet then yesterday, as I was looking through another module past year exam questions, which I am going to be examine on coming Wednesday, my blood pressure went up. The notes given by the lecturer were very scattered, with information here and there. Reading them had already made me sick. Also, some of the answers to the questions were not given in the lecture notes. I was so raged.

So raged that I turned in early, I couldn't revise anymore, not even looking at other module which is more 'calming'. This afternoon, I went to the library, hoping to solve the puzzles. I spent 3 hours, only manage to find 1.5 answer, the rest remained a mystery. I was so raged. Why?

Because, the answers to the mysteries were not from books recommended. I felt so headache in the library, picking up books and flapping pages and pages for something familiar to the exam. My blood pressure went up again... I was hungry and angry.

I felt like pushing down all the book shelves, and seeing them collapsing one after another like poker cards. If only I could scream like I was possessed too...

So rage... so rage...