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I felt injustice when people have this misconception about me or my life and I don't blame them because they didn't know what I have been through in UK and what I am going to go through in the future.

All you see in my blog was mostly the 'fun and happy' times I had. People who knows me the best, knew that my blog was superficial from the beginning. I wanted to keep it this way because I don't want to upset or worry anyone with my gloomy posts.

Only when bad times hit me extremely hard, then you will see me writing a rare depressed post yet without elaboration. Reason: trying to keep my reader's high spirit if possible.

However, there were too much speculations when I met with some people during my vacation in Singapore. And I think I should clarify some things... and I wondered why should I be concerned? Reason: I had enough!

Just when you think that I am having a good life in UK and a great opportunity to study there...

1) All my expenses besides my own savings are borrowed from loan. As you may be aware that the living expenses in UK are high, not to mention my school fees. I am expected to pay thousand of debts every month when I start working. It is terrifying to think of a HUGE debt to clear after my graduation?

If you fancy the kind of great opportunity I had... You can have it! All you need is the qualification to enter the university, a bank who could loan the money + a guarantor and family who could do without your allowances for a couple of years.

You might be thinking... you choose this path yourself. Yes, I brought the shit and trouble to myself and I am well aware of the consequences and I am prepared to face the financial pressure! By the time, you all got a flat or house, I am still paying my bloody school debt. So, if you are my friend, please pray that at the end of my course, I got a high- flyer salary or a filthy rich husband (somehow, man can't be depended on).

2) How many times do I have to mention that I am doing a new course? If you think that direct entry to the second year without any foundations in mechanical or biology is small case. Then I think you should consider following my footsteps. It would be such a pity that the society misses out a smarty who could learn at his/ her finger tips. You could have contributed to the society so much more!

Again, you would think... you choose this path yourself. Yes, I brought the shit to myself again and I am well aware of the consequences and I am trying very hard to catch up with only 'the tail revealed and not the head'.

I am writing this, not to be sympathised but hopefully you would think twice about me, having a fantastic time. It ignores me, infact very very much about the way people put things bluntly. You have no idea where I am coming from...

And I want to tell you that you are reading a blog from a woman who got this great strength and courage to go through all the stress and pressure. A woman who chooses the most challenging phase in her life when it could be easier.

It might not be extraordinary to you, but to me, it is the most remarkable path I have ever chosen!